Most of my friends with children are all out of the diaper, potty training, naptime troubles, sleepless phase. Most of their kids are older and are much more independent. At 2, 4 and 8, my boys need a lot of attention and help. I sometimes find myself wishing away these crazy times when I focus on the negative. Days when I am so tired, but there is no sleep or rest to be had. Days when it seems impossible to be patient and calm. Days when there is so much whining and crying that I want to just join in! Waa-ahh! But then… I look to my God for the right focus and He shows me the abundant joys I have right before my eyes! So often He is the last place I look to for help, when He should always be the first!
Those nights when I am awakened by a sleepy little munchkin for whatever reason; THOSE are precious moments I may never see again. When I am snuggled up in my 2 year old’s bed at 2:00 a.m.trying to calm him or get him back to sleep and he rolls over and says, “Isn’t this fun, Mama?” or “Wanna snuggle, Mama?” I may not think the loss of sleep is so fun, but sweet, cuddly moments like that are slipping away even as they occur! Oh, to take a mental picture and breathe in the loveliness of those moments!
A couple of weeks ago as we drove down the road, my 4-year-old read a billboard sign to me! What? Who taught him how to read? :-) Sure enough, we came home and pulled out some of our beginning readers and he could slowly but surely sound them out and read several sentences to me! We had not yet begun to formally teach him reading, but okay! I guess it was time? :-) To witness those moments of discovery and joy; to cuddle up on the couch and dive into stories of adventure; to watch him experience them for the first time, in wide-eyed wonder…Oh, what wonderful moments!
I think of my 8 year old…in another eight years he will be sixteen!! These first 8 years have flown by! The days may often seem slow, but those years, HOW THEY FLY! If he moved out at 18, my time with him would be almost half over now. OH! That thought makes my heart sink! He has so many thoughts and questions and ideas to share. If I wish my time away now and do not listen to the cares of his heart…I will never get a second chance. I need to be here for my children today, whatever phase they are in, whatever frustration or joy I am dealing with…the time is now. I cannot plan the future or live in the future! God gives us each new day to enjoy…not to wish or plan away! TODAY I can enjoy these beautiful moments. For tomorrow has enough trouble of it’s own…
Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it’s own. (Matthew 6:34)