It was August of 2013, I was flying out of Tampa to Nashville. Strange for me as it was the first time I had been on an airplane in over five years. I was hit with this crazy rush of emotions. All these thoughts and feelings flooded my head. The “what ifs,” the “could have beens” and the “if onlys.”
You see, five years earlier it was not at all unusual to be flying around the country a couple of times or more per month visiting friends and family. My husband was working for an airline that we thought he would retire from. Our oldest son was 6 months old at the time, we had just moved from Illinois to Kentucky. It was such an exciting and unique time and lifestyle. Not without its drawbacks of course, but we were headed in the direction of the life we hoped and planned to lead.
Very soon though, things began to turn in a different direction. Major cutbacks with in the airline, more difficult work hours for my husband, talk of the company closing. It was getting pretty messy and after a while we started looking elsewhere for possible job options. Through a series of events we eventually ended up back in Illinois about two years later.
Again, all did not go exactly as we thought and so 6 months and 2 jobs later, my husband happened to be driving home from work in a car we had purchased only five days earlier. Someone rolled right through a stop sign and hit him on the driver’s side.
His back was broken, requiring two major surgeries and causing severe nerve damage. Doctors were able to stabilize his back, but the nerve damage causes him severe pain to this day. He is barely able to walk, very slow and unsteady…but walking even that much is a miracle in itself. The nerves in his back were actually cut into by broken bone, very close to removing his ability to walk.
That was almost six years ago now. It has been a very long journey with many trips to doctors and specialists, that have not eased the pain he experiences. We have endured financial loss, relationship loss, aching hearts and a desire to be understood.
However, God has taken us from those lows to many highs we would have never experienced otherwise. Our marriage has become much closer, our understanding of (and faith in) God’s goodness and provision has grown exponentially. We have met people we never would have otherwise, we have been blessed beyond measure time after time.
The rush of feelings I felt as the plane lifted off from Tampa was just a reminder of where we have been, not a place of sadness or disappointment to dwell in. As I landed in Nashville, the plane slowed and everything settled. I was reminded that God has held us up this entire time and He is not going to stop now. My heart calmed and peace returned. I cannot say that I would not have had it any other way, but I can say that I know God has a reason for this path we have travelled. And so I continue to trust, with a thankful heart, that He knows where this path is going and it’s the one I want to follow.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
Blessings to you wherever you are on your journey! It may seem impossible, but whatever it is God can bring you through it, my friend! ~ Kelly